Nowadays, i've been showing a stupid smile on my face that is constantly there. I know why it exists, but it shouldn't. I shouldn't have any reason to smile with my lips and my eyes. You shown me that i was able to feel love again, even when everything is against it, and i'm bound to be miserable when this is over. And yes, I know it will be over...when you leave, and only then. Because i had to accept that i no longer have the ability to leave by myself. I love you already too damn much. So in a strange twisted way and with all the things that don't allow this to work, i really should thank you for making me smile again. And dream.